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Back in Pinas

So after working in Kuwait for 2 years, I went home and tried to find a work. I could’ve gone back there and continue it, but if my salary here would be just as much there, might as well stay. And so I did…

… and the recession began. It isnt a joke to find work here at the peak of US’s downfall. Staying in the Philippines for 5 months without a job isnt as hard as being broke in other countries. Here, you can stay home and your parents and friends would still give you food, shelter and everything else for free, even if you’re 45 years old. Asian families have closer family ties. You could still stay with them even if you’re old enough to work. After being a bum and all the while trying to pass my resumes to these companies for 5 months, I received an email telling me to report back and that they were thinking about hiring me. SoI did, and that is still my work to this day. In case you’re wondering why I posted those WoW articles, it’s because my company is selling and buying WoW accounts, as well as offering income to gamers. I’m gonnna tell you more of that in the future.

The one thing that surprised me, I’m already in a ripe age to have sex but I’m still not doing it!

I had an experience with a bar guy before, which was 8 years ago. And you know what? I felt bad about myself doing it, so I never did it again. In my opinion, it’s always better to do it with a guy who’s loving you, and both of you are in a serious committed relationship. A particular argued with me beforea nd asked me “but what if you can’t find a guy to love? What are you gonna do? jump out of the window?” Well maybe he has a point, but it’s case to case basis. One might not agree with the other, and others might agree with one.

Now Im asking myself, should I try to find something adventurous in my life, and not just impose the “go to work, go back home” policy to myself? But you can’t find love, right? They said that it just comes in your life when you you least expect it. I don’t think I’m a head turner, but I dont look like Shriek, and I do get some nice comments with guys sometimes (awww…….. how sweet of you <wink wink>), but as “Mary Poppins”, I don’t think I would go out and find myself a sex adventure. I’ve tried though, and it just wouldn’t work on me.

In other words, I’m in a stage of my life that its just completely flat. Oh yeah, remember the bar guy? that was the first and last, and didnt have another one in 8 years. You’d find it hard to believe, but I’m not lying on that.


April 17, 2009 - Posted by | Journal | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,


  1. Hey bro,

    There are some boundaries you think you might love to cross, walls you feel you need to scale over, things you feel you love to experience…

    Like you I sometimes feel I have to experience it, to cross it, to bound over the wall and see what’s on the other side…

    Like you, I work in a BPO I.T. company in Makati. I’m dreaming of working in Muntinlupa since it’s so near where I live. But I have a training bond I have to work off till December this year.

    But like you I’ve never done it. Ever. I’m a lot older than you but I’ve never done it with another person…

    If you’re confused and isolated, check out www dot narth dot com. Also, check out the website of the group i go to. it’s couragephilippines and it has a blog.

    The group keeps me sane and grounded.

    Comment by Jaime Eneko | June 6, 2009 | Reply

    • Yeah, sometimes its tempting. The problem is, you don’t know how to start at times. And I’m not really that kind of person who woulds seek out such adventures. But sometimes, you just feel that you’re not normal at all since everyone is getting laid. But whatever, there must be a greater plan for me. So let’s see how it goes… 🙂

      Comment by Oren | June 24, 2009 | Reply

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